i don't like losing. i don't handle it well. so instead of eating my weight in almond m&m's or chocolate chip cookies, i want to go for a run. "you already exercised" she said. well news flash, it's not about the exersice. it's about the fact that while running it's me, music, and the pavement. it's the only freaking me-time i get!!! which i need more of because i don't know how to respond to someone who thinks i'm becoming obsessive and going to starve myself. she is the one who said i was fat to begin with! and she talks about how it's because i miss him. well, no offense, but it's not about him at all! it's about the fact that she thinks i don't have enough self-respect and down right common sense that i would do something that would hurt me. i honestly don't understand what i could have possibly said or done to make her think i would do something that stupid. thanks for all the confidence though, boosts the self-esteem like you wouldn't believe!

xoxo

facebook just can't go away. they can't "be back soon." i am addicted and i need my facebook time!!!!!!

i realize that i am not the greatest person to be around sometimes. and yes, i do my very best to try to embarrass anyone around at any given point. i am aware that there are people who avoid me to the best of their ability but never in my life have i seen someone actually hid behind chips. my mother, sister, and i went to the store to buy food for dinner when i noticed someone i knew. however, when this unnamed person recognized me they continued walking and turned down the next isle looking down and desperately trying to disappear. now i have to admit i was a little bit hurt, but when it comes down to it...who can blame them?

xoxo

changes are happening and walls are going up.

both things i can and yet can't control.

xoxo

it's amazing how much satistfaction one can get from something as simple as shaved legs.

xoxo

it's amazing how much you can miss someone, especially when they are right next to you. or ten seconds after you tell them good bye. or not seeing them for three months and all of a sudden getting a stab of pain and desire to see them. emotions are a strange thing.

xoxo